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• when we meet someone & fall in love, we have a sense that the   universe is on our side..and yet if something goes wrong, there is nothing left.
• life moves very fast. it rushes ys from heaven to hell in a matter if seconds.
• my aim is to understand love. i know how alive i felt when i was in love & i know that everythinh i have now however interesting it might seem. doesn’t really excite me.
• if i must be faitful to someone or something then i have to first of all, to be faithful to myself. if im looking for true love, i first have to get the mediocre love out of my system.
• anyone who has lost something they thought was theirs forever finally comes to realize that nothing really belongs to them. & if nothing belongs to me, then there’s no point wasting my time looking after things that aren’t mine. its best to live as if today were the first (last) day of my life.
• i can choose either to be a victim of the world or an adventurer in search of treasure. it’s all a question of how i view my life.
• before i die, i want to fight for life. & if i can walk on my own, i can go wherever i like.
• the roller coaster is my life. life is a fast, dizzying game; life is a parachute jump: it’s taking chances, falling over and getting up again; it’s mountaineering, it’s wanting to get to the very top of yourself & to feel angry & dissatisfied when you don’t manage it.
• in the search of happiness we are all equal.
• i didn’t ask to be born, i’ve never found anyone to love me, i’ve always made the wrong decisions - now im letting life decide for me.
• im not a body with a soul; im a soul that has a visible part called the body. my soul didn’t say anything to me, didn’t criticize me or feel sorry for me, it merely watched me. I realized why this was happening; it’s been such a long time since i thought about love or anything called love. it seems to be running away from me, as if it wasn’t important anymore & i didn’t feel welcome.  but if i don’t think about love, i will be nothing.
• i need to write about love. i need to think & think &, i need to write & write about love - otherwise, my soul won’t survive.
• men are very strange. they can beat you up, shout at you, threaten you & yet they’re scared to death of women really. Perhaps not the woman they married, but there’s always one woman who frightens them & forces them to submit to her caprices. even if it’s their own mother.
• all my life i thought of love as some kind of voluntary enslavement. well that’s a lie; freedom only exists when love is present. the person who gives him or herself wholly, the person who feels freest, is the person who loves most wholeheartedly. & the person who loves wholeheartedly feels free.
• in love no one can harm anyone else; we are each of us responsible for our own feelings & cannot blame someone esle for what we feel. it hurts when i lost the man i fell in love with. now, through i am convinced that no one loses anyone, because no one owns anyone. that is the true experience of freedom; having the most important thing in th world without owning it.
• passion sends us signals that guides us through our lives & its up to us to interpret those signs.
• the great aim of every human being is to understand the meaning of total love. love is not to be found in someone else, but in ourselves. we simply awaken it. but in order to do that, we need the other person. the universe only makes sense when we have someone to share our feelings with.
• profound desire, true desire is the desire to be close to someone. from that point onwards, they change, the man and the woman come into play, but what happens before the attraction the brought them together is impossible to explain. it is untouched desire in it’s purest state.
• really important meetings are planned by the souls long before the bodies see each other.
• everyone knows how to love because we are all born with that gift. some people have a natural talent for it, but the majority of us have to re-learn, have to remember how to love without exception, needs to burn on the bonfire of past emotions, to relieve certain joys and griefs, certain ups and downs, until they can see the connecting threads behind each encounter.
• human beings weren’t made solely to go in search of wisdom but also to plought the land, wait for rain, plant the wheat, harvest the grain and made the bread.
• desire is not what you see but what you imagined.

he wrote a  blog about trudy

one of his  closest gurl friends

it made me sad

i couldnt take  if off my mind

maybe  im  jealous?..i dont know

i  dont  have the  right to be jealous

its a relief though coz now

i realized im still capable of jealousy

but what good would it do?

a couple of years debate

between  my heart and  mind

is not enough to come up with a verdict

jealousy only means one thing

and im not sure im ready to gamble again

everytime  someone gets too close

i make sure i pull myself out in time

knowing that when i become emotionally dependent

ill be weak  and totally vulnerable

‘guess i pulled out myself too late now

to get affected by a simple write-up

i dont like  this

this is not good

i hate this feeling

its making me shit scared…

I was raised to be a good daughter

          ..I managed to be one

I was so opinionated

          ..It always irritates mom

I was my father’s favorite

          ..I used to kick my older brother’s butt

I became an older sister

          ..I end up spoiling my younger brother

I used to act like a lesbian

          ..I fooled everyone around me

I was in athletics

          ..It was one of my greatest moments

I had my share of medals and awards

          ..I never passed the “mushy” division

I once thought love has found me

          ..It was just a make believe

I wanted to be sane

          ..I’m still a work in process

I’ll always be happy

          ..is the choice I made

I will never be what I’m not

          ..is my standing vow

I could only give what I have

          ..is my guiding principle

I live for the present

          ..for tomorrow will take care of itself!!

ITNKEAACPEVRMHRDEEAWOSRFBHVOYUIEOBCL

                                                                                    - zinx-

i wanted to create another write-up..i wanted to say what’z on ma mind..but what the heck..nuthin really is on ma mind ryt now than thinking of sumthing to write..buahahaha!!!..now this is exactly the downside when you felt nuthin at all..but hmmm it feels ryt…i think i’m contented and happy at the moment..hehe..now isn’t that great?!!>>.. wooooo hooooooooo…!! <hope this will not last only for an hour!!>..whaaaaaaaaaaaahhh…!!

sssshhh..did i tell you that i’ve this internet friend..that we treat each other as bezzfrenzz and we chat everyday and we kind of really love each other’s company?..hehehe..hey hey..i’m not in love with him..it’s just that he’s in love with me..whaaattt??..hehehe…but then its gonna be like.."THIs GuY’S iN LovE wiTh YOu PaRE!!" BUahahaHAHa!! coz you see i declared maself a lesbian(after the turmoils i’ve been through with ma x-men suckers) and he’s GaYYYY (after i declared im a lesbian..he declared he’s an adam-turned-eve)..omg yaaaaaaaayyyy!!!..buahahahahaha….kaka will LOL when she reads this..jejejeje..hmmm ka?..oryt, go on…! you can sing "perfect combination..na na la la lala"…hahahahaha…!!!..nahh..we’re better off as bezzyy!!..:P

enwez..i’m excited for next week..!!..geeesshh..i’ll be starting the new episode of zinx next level school life adventurezz(hopefully not as cartoon thingy as dora)..hehe..and im hoping against hope ma new hummiez are cool and psycho’z..that way i’ll be able to keep track with ma new year’s "october" resolution to be nice and be nice..hahaha!!..

uh uh now is this for real???..past 3:00 a.m…early for me to go to sleep i must stay up for more hours to sleep a lil late..jejeje..time flies like mosquitos!! oh myyy..i’m bursting with laughter!!..buahahahhahaha..

hmmm yes??? el necessario for me to sleep now? no se preocupe me siguen siendo yo (don’t worry, i’m still me!)de nada! goooddnnessss!!juz what the hell am i talkin?..hmm don’t mind much..im juz like this..no major brain disruption..juz a total blackout!!!

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hey here are those im trying to forward to you earlier. oh my i dunno what happened and my mood juz zoomed down. as in really down..sensitivity have a knack of pulling me down at times. haha..

maybe some sagittarians (like me) really were born confused and lacked the last turn of the brain nails for it to function normally.

im complicated..im worst. i cry and laugh without reasons. i feel the pain other people are experiencing. when im happy..i feel happy..and feel the emptiness right after..i’m restless. im twisted and sometimes im a non-feeling entity.

now im wondering if bitches really are puzzles.

– i hate it when two people love each other too much and waste the opportunity to love each other just because of some stupidity juz like in the story. i’ve loved too much once but i’ve never experienced bein loved in return–why are they wasting theirs?–

it’s  already 4:00 am and im still up..whatz got into me, that im not sure..maybe caffeine or a lot of caffeine??..which is which?..ahh the latter maybe…

jenny is still on though so i still have company but then her connection is such a pain in the  a** ..our chat is almost always interrupted.. so here i am writing here of juz a-n-y-t-h-i-n-g!!

ohh so now its SUNDAY..hehehe..peeepzz wake up wake up..its now time to pray and give time to our CREATOR..ohh sighh..its been long since i havent gone to mass..hmm maybe today is perfect to go and spend an hour with HIM.

well anytime is perfect but then as a a friend told me..goin to mass is still different so maybe i have to pull ma butt out of here and go to church. hmmm that’s gonna be great..hehe..

jingjing..thanks for the chat..duhhhh miss yah soo much..keep cool gurl..

have a great sunday everyone!!..

signing off now..

keep rockin!!!